I love being known as someone who makes things happen. In fact my identity has been firmly wrapped in my ability to manifest things fast. I can turn on a dime, move to another country, change careers, reinvent myself.
No hanging about for me! Oh no!
I know how to make things happen fast…..
And I know about transitions.
Transitions mean living in the gap, living in the space between things, not knowing what’s next, or not knowing how or when the ‘next’ will happen. Making friends with the unknown, trusting divine timing. Trusting we are exactly where we need to be to move to the next step. Letting go of the when’s and how’s. This is where the loose ends get tied, the past is completed, and we prepare the ground for a smooth transition. It’s magical.
While I’ve experienced my share of powerful transitions, the option I’ve favored in the past is the lightening fast change - which is sometimes just perfect.
But here’s the thing….
Four years ago I got clear that living near water was a passion of mine and I decided to get curious about what might be possible. Immediately I attracted articles about houseboats, I was led to websites about houseboats, and a friend happened to mention she knew someone selling their houseboat. Within two weeks I had put an offer on a houseboat, and a week later I had sold my condo to the first person who looked at it. It was like magic. My Sell Your Home Faster audio program flew off the shelves.
And here’s something I haven’t said about that whole process.
It was stressful!
Yes, it was wonderful and exciting and everyone was inspired.
And it was stressful!
It all happened so fast, and before I knew it I was on the water. I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I loved that feeling of being able to manifest my dream, and I loved being on the water.
Now, four years later, I’m ready for another expansion. I put my houseboat on the market and before I knew it, I had a signed contract and everything looked great. I’ve helped many others sell their homes fast, and here I was doing it again for myself.
But….I felt stressed.
I’ve had a recurring dream for as long as I can remember: I’m about to fly off somewhere. The plane is leaving in an hour and I’m still at home in a panic without my bags packed. My ‘I’m not ready’ dream - always variations on that theme - I had it again.
And against all odds, the sale fell apart. It was the weirdest thing.
My inner gremlin had a field day……”I thought you knew how to sell homes fast, what’s wrong with you?” he asked.
Once I got over that, I realized there must be something else that is supposed to be happening before I move and I started asking a more useful question: what am I here to learn right now?
And what I got back is this:
“This is a time of major transition for you, a major reinvention and you’re asking a lot. This is not a ‘now you see it, now you don’t', process. There are things you need to let go of, things to do in preparation, and ways of being if you’re really serious about what you are asking for. You say you want a spacious life, you want to feel more connected to spirit, you want to drop the busyness, you want to find YOUR way. There is more involved than selling your houseboat! Remember, you take yourself with you wherever you go!”
For the last few weeks I’ve felt my life was in limbo - when my place sold, I could get on with my life. I was in ‘waiting’ mode. Last weekend I made a decision not to wait any longer. There are things I feel excited to put into motion now. Getting ready!
Immediately I felt at peace, I’m sleeping better, I’m enjoying our wonderful Indian Summer and I’m feeling more of what I’ve been yearning for - be-ing more. Less busyness, more spaciousness, a deeper connection with Spirit, and a deep trust that I’m exactly where I need to be right now.
I don’t know what all this this means exactly, but I do see evidence that I’m being supported in this major transition and I’m being present to the now. I’m enjoying my life - no need to wait till I move to do what I want to do - the rest will take care of itself.
One of the things I remind clients A LOT, is that it’s not their job to figure out the hows. I’m listening!
I can now see that my intention to sell my home fast was actually in conflict with a bigger intention I have. I couldn’t move into my new life at high speed. There is not a hard edge between the past and future - it needs to be marinated in the now. There are things to do now that will make this transition a smooth one, and there are things I need to learn along the way so I can truly have this new life I’m asking for.
I’m reminded that I’m not living my life in order to GET somewhere. I’m living my life in order to BE somewhere.
Is there something you are trying to push to make happen? How’s that working for you?
Wanna share? I’d love to hear from you.